This is the end for this blog.

its sad to say it

Hahaha

I've moved to blogger http://lightxspeed.blogspot.com .

So if you dug me before, hopefully you will dig me now in my new digs.

Anyway-working away now, in college, growing up since the first time I wrote an entry about my deoderant (check the archives) but now I'm writing about a lot more complex things.

If you wanna see one of my other side projects, I also have been working away on http://twosirs.blogspot.com with my buddy. Its basically just a bunch of opinions on our part.

 

Anyone who used to read this stuff-thanks so much, somedays you made it more barable to get up in the morning, some days it helped me get through the day. And for your sake, hopefully I can be as good as I was back then, if I was any good at all.

I also feel my writing skills have developed a little bit more through reading and writing a lot more over the last few years, and now I think everything is clear enough that I am going to be able to write things that are not only valid and good, but also clear and easy to read.

 

Thanks a million,

Sincerely,

LightxSpeed/Francis/CoLiN

Oh should I add some lyrics for old time sake?

Bright End Of Nowhere-Matthew Good

Here's the bright end of nowhere
Here's the results of all our days
Used to lay on the roof and drink beer
And try and count up all the ways
That you could waste away
Looking back it seemed so simple
But having done it I couldn't say

The lights are out baby
And I'm a mouse
The lights are out
Baby so hear me out
The lights are out baby
And I'm a mouse

So here's the bright end of nowhere
Here's the commercial of all our days
Go on vacations and drink beer
And try and forget all the ways
We let ourselves get away
Looking back it seemed so simple
But having done it
It's not the same

The lights are out baby
And I'm a mouse
The lights are out
Baby so hear me out
The lights are out baby
And I'm a mouse

I recently went to a sting game (sarnia sting), got me thinking. You know one major factor that gets anyone an A in the drafting books is probably agression. I mean lets face it. You fight someone you meet on the street, the cops (refferee's) come, you get taken care of (penalty box); back of a cruiser.

 

Okay, I like fighting in hockey just as much as the next guy, but like this premeditated B.S. that goes on pre-play just seems stupid. Recently we had a guy get in a fight right off of like the second face off of the game. If you don't think he looked at the other guy before hand and gave him the look, your full of it. Their eyes obviously met,  and whether there was an ongoing grudge or not, they definetly both knew it was going to happen.

 

I'm sorry guys, I know this is something that we love but I can't help but think this out and realize we are stupid. Go watch UFC.

I'm going to add here, I don't care for fights that look really really premeditated. When I see two guys on the ice going at it, the only thing that makes me go whoa and really like it, is when you can look at them and tell that they are both fucking angry. If you look at them and they dance around with the back and forth rock em' sock em' robots bullshit, it ruins the fight. I wanna see the mental testosterone adrenaline rage. I want that guy to be really pissed. I want the other guy to take it like a man because he started it and he is a pussy. I dont wanna see two teens who think : "hey if I fight this guy, I will be seen as agressive and can be a goon for some NHL team that needs to fill their seats to the drinking, looking to see some scraps crowd".

 

Honestly, I feel the old snotty, bloody hankey of a society that just needs me to keep catching their bullshit. They just keep handing me shitty music, "reality shows", highly overpriced clothing, lies, pornography or for lack of a better term "soft-porn" that allows the men to get a boner over their product, and the boys to have the seeds planted, and now this. I know I'm fucked over, I know that they know what I like, and that I only like what they tell me to, and thanks to the emofad even trying to be a little off the norm is pretty much impossible. They also know that we all would run to the audience section of any spontaneous act of agression just to get off on the adrenaline our brain releases. Were addicted, but its "normal".

 

On the complete other hand, what would the world be like if I had to own or maintain a hockey team. Would I really say "fuck this, I'll go broke as long as my players don't fight!" No. Because I need to eat just like anybody.

 

Maybe its just the fact that we all have been put through the brainwashingmachine so much that if someone even wanted to make a stand, the revolt to them would be too much and the idea would be so stomped on that it would be forgotten about forevor.

 

The idea to ban fighting in hockey is probbaly a bad one. The idea of not letting some players get in through

 

Congrats to that fighter though, because he scored a hatrick of short-handed goals that night!

 

Okay so I recognize the fact that this is the first post in quite some time. A couple of weeks ago I got a post from an old reader saying that I should start posting more. I think I might. I also think I should switch the page around a little bit to just outright confuse you.

Okay Not for that reason, but just because I think I dont really like it too much anymore. I was reading some of my old posts and realized that I spent a lot of time trying to put things in to try and make myself "internet famous" which is pretty dumb.  Especially when really what makes up the whole blogging community is the realism that we create by writing about everyday life. (If that made any sense whatsoever).

Lately not much has really happened. One of my good friends Scott Lin posted in my tag board. That was really, really cool. You see, when I was in grade eight he was my best friend and then between grade 8 and 9 (Elementary school and High School) he moved back to china and I was pretty upset. But he moved to Toronto so we have been talking and hopefully I will get to see him sometime.

Basically I am holding down two jobs right now, I work at Telus and Zellers, its pretty insane especially because all my shifts end up being clustered together (on the same days) and then I end up getting 10.5 hour days at two different jobs. So yeah, its been busy, and then its been lazy, and then busy again. What can I say? I just plainly forgot about my blog. Please Please Forgive!

I have been accepeted into the College & Program that I wanted here in Ontario so I am pretty happy about that and psyched to go away. Its pretty bittersweet though right? I mean honestly do I really want to move away from my home where I don't have to feed and take care of myself? My girlfriend is trying to get into a program in the same city,  so we will have eachother, which is awesome. I think she will probably get in, she seems to be stressed about it but I hope it all goes well. I'm pretty proud of her pushing herself so hard lately, she tried her hardest in all of her courses and thats really all anyone could have asked for. Not that she did bad or anything, she did quite well, her average just isn't Brown noserifically High (90%+).

 

Hey wanna here something really really scary? I READ A BOOK! Thats right, I read a book, me, the lazy guy. The book is called The Perks Of Being A Wallflower by Stephen Chbosky, it is freaking excellent. Honestly, I will never forget the impact it had on me, I honestly spent a few weeks just thinking and stuff. I have to be honest, I was a little depressed but that was partially because it was over. Also partially because it is a little bit depressing, but its a good story anyways.

 

Another thing you should check out if you get the chance is the Matthew Good Cd "Hospital Music" Its really good and nice to listen to. It's a little different from most of his other stuff, there is about 85% Acoustic guitar and other stuff (sounds, piano, other). The lack of electric didn't really bother me too much though.

 

I think I may get rid of my guitar pedals and buy that Digitech RP500 because its pretty sick and will pretty much replace my Dunlop cry baby wah and Digitech Death Metal  pedal (though I may keep the wah, its pretty classy).  Its also got a crap load of other effects including like 12 different overdrives, so I think its probably going to kill my single Overdrive pedal.

Anyhow, here is the song for today

RESOLVE BY THE FOO FIGHTERS

Something that I felt today, something that I heard
Swingin' from the chandeliers, hanging on your word
I remember watchin' you, once upon a time
Dancing from across the room, in another life

A little bit of resolve is what I need now
Pin me down, show me how
A little bit of resolve is what I need now
Pin me down, show me how

Lookin' back to find my way, never seemed so hard
Yesterday's been laid to rest, changing of the guard
I would never change a thing, even if I could
All the songs we used to sing, everything was good

A little bit of resolve is what I need now
Pin me down, show me how
A little bit of resolve is what I need now
Pin me down, show me how

One more year that you're not here has gone and passed you by
What happened to you, what happened to you?
One more tear that you won't hear has gone and passed you by
What happened to you, what happened to you?

A little bit of resolve is what I need now
Pin me down, show me how
A little bit of resolve is what I need now
Pin me down, show me how

A little bit of resolve
One more year that you're not here
Has gone and passed you by (A little bit of resolve)
A little bit of resolve
One more year that you're not here
Has gone and passed you by (A little bit of resolve)

Okay and that is it, sorry its been so long, and hopefully it will become more frequent. I must go because I just realized that I have ice on the inside of my bedroom window (is that bad?) So I probably should see what the matter is there. Look for blog updates and layout and style changes soon too!

Okay Peace out!

Hey, I dont got too much to say considering the fact that it is 7:29 AM and I have to leave for school soon.

 

Just a couple things about news lately, Shane Doan... he must have said something pretty bad for our own CANADIAN GOVERNMENT to get INVOLVED with a "GOVERNMENT TAX-FUNDED" organization...but really, they are up there in their cozy chairs where they dont have to worry about anything, getting paid enough (enough ..). So there-fore, leave Shane Doan alone, why worry about what the hell he said to a ref, why dont you go and look at the schools, where you can see people get racially discriminated everyday for what one thinks is (FUN!?!?) and then go on the internet and look at some racist forums, oh thats fun, and try fighting with them...IT IS embarassing to see our own government do this, when we most definately have a lot more to work on in life than this.

 

Also in Chemistry we are watching an incovenient truth, and you know how I am with documentaries, they end up being major discussion on here for a while, or at least in part. I think this one is an eye-opener, but I have another eye opener. In one of Lisa's classes there were some girls who said (THIS YEAR, A FEW WEEKS AGO) That Al Gore was doing this to bring up his publicity before he ran for president... I am really sorry if I am wrong but...nvm I just heard on the radio he even PAID A F**KING FINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So Flick off and leave him alone and let him play like he is you stupids. (The previous sentence was worse before I changed it).

 

Hahah, thats what I love about Canada you can bash your government and they can't do too much.

 

Okay...well thats it for now, I know that was quite pathetic...for a journal entry...

Well here we go with the song

The Taste of Ink-The Used

Is it worth it can you even hear me
Standing with your spotlight on me
Not enough to feed the hungry
I'm tired and I felt it for awhile now
In this sea of lonely
The taste of ink is getting old
It's four o' clock in the fucking morning
Each day gets more and more like the last day
Still I can see it coming
While I'm standing in the river drowning
This could be my chance to break out
This could be my chance to say goodbye
At last it's finally over
Couldn't take this town much longer
Being half dead wasn't what I planned to be
Now I'm ready to be free

[Chorus]
So here I am it's in my hands
And I'll savor every moment of this
So here I am alive at last
And I'll savor every moment of this

And won't you think I'm pretty
When I'm standing top the bright lit city
And I'll take your hand and pick you up
And keep you there so you can see
As long as you're alive and care
I promise I will take you there
We'll drink and dance the night away
We'll drink and dance the night away

[Chorus]

savor every moment of this

As long as you're alive
Here I am
I promise I will take you there
[x2]

And won't you think I'm pretty
When I'm standing top the bright lit city
And I'll take your hand and pick you up
And keep you there so you can see
As long as you're alive and care
I promise I will take you there
As long as you're alive and care
I promise I will take you there

[Chorus]

savor every moment of this [x2]

 

Sweet, so wanna see a picture of Julian???Okay here ya are, he is laying in an orange's box

Hey there everyone again :D wow I have done another entry within a day? (I think?)

Anyway, not much is really going on, IM bored, and stuff, I have to go to London on Friday so thats that and junk. Uhm... not much else has really happened. I ran for 20 minutes straight on the tredmill, and then 2 days ago I did the same, so thats pretty good I think. I go to ottawa in a couple weeks, thats gunna be funn tooooo.

The spring is hopefully really rolling around, around here lately, so thats just freaking great cuz I am sooo happy to wear shorts and have my window open in my room and wear sandals again. But really I think I just have SAD because I never seem too be nearly as happy in the winter as I am in the Summer or Spring, but I am usually happier in Summer.

I did wear shorts today though. I just wanted to not wear pants so I wore shorts and no one really said anything, not that I would have cared much. But I think if they had my explanation could have been something along the lines that if women can wear skirts in the winter that show their asses, I can wear shorts in spring/pre spring. And in case you are wondering, I am straight. Yes, the whole ass showing thing is slightly sexy. However, Im not a dog, its not right to tease me (or a dog for that matter) and its not right to use your self as a lure, to just be like, I am going to put my self respect down so much just to see how many guys I can get at school. Not to mention skirts in winter time are probably just a dumb idea to begin with. And also, teasing me doesnt matter anyway cause' I have Lisa. So dont look at me and think that I am gay or something just because I say this, because this is thoroughly a femenistic point of view. Do you really think all women actually want to be seen as sluts? And if you think about it, its not even just the fact that you wear a skirt anymore. If a female was to tell someone that they were a secratary and it was a man, one of the 1st things that would be going through his head is "I wonder if she is doing her boss", why? Because our major pornography-fantasia media made it that way. We dream of the things we cannot have because it is impossible, not because certain people arent acting a certain way. And then some turn and say, you know what, if I act a certain way (wear that tight short-short! skirt) then I can lean into a mans fantasy and let him see just what he wants to see. No one cherishes a relationship that lives on love and respect anymore, we want just what others want, and your Fetish--Just turns out to be the flavour of the year.

Anyway, thats totally that! What else could I possible spat about? I dont know...

I want to get a tattoo, but of course its the old, my parents wont let me, which is fine because I know that if I dont put thought into it and get a pistol or a grenade or a heart I am going to regret it. SO I thought about it a lil and after seeing 300 I have decided that I want a Spartan Helmet. But not until I become physically fit, then I will get it, because they were the meanest toughest soldiers so I should be come the meanest toughest looking. But hopefully all goes well there and I end up with a cool tattoo.

Watched a lot of Aqua Teen Hunger Force during the march break. Ya! It was sooo cool I guess.

My buddy went on the Italy trip through our school and managed to bring back a bb gun he bought off of a street vendor. I think it would be cool to get a bb gun and I have been looking at them for a while now. But maybe I should just wait until Lisa is 18 and get her to buy me one rather than ask my parents if I can have a bb gun because the answer would be no, and believe me I tottally understand. At my age, and my sisters age, I would not want my kids running around with bb guns either (hypothetically speaking). But it'll be sweet if I get one. I was thinking of getting a paintball gun for a while but I sorta realized that they would be a tad more expensive, and a person who is looking to 1. not compete, just have fun with a bb gun and 2. Have a projectile launcher that is more gun-like (bullets), I just figure that a bb gun would make more sense. Not to mention they are cheaper.

Another thing to say. I have kinda been thinking and thinking and thinking over the past 3 months that I should write a song, but I havent really gotten around to it (lack of creative mind) (hahaha jk jk jk) Its more like lack of focus, see I think that what I will need is a drum beat to play in the background while I do this, so maybe I should download some off the internet and listen to them and write songs to them, which sucks for the drummer because they will have to copy what it sounds like, or maybe not. I dont know.

I remember like a year ago I was so pro emo and now I have tottaly changed my mind. I have sort of realized that there are like 2 types of people who are emo, there are the people who have real problems (and YES there are real problems to be had) and there are those people who just want fucking attention. Like you'll notice you will have this person on your msn list(or you could be them, in which case Fuck Off) but they will be like this ---Sam -Tonite I cut myself, and think of you while every last bit of blood drips out of my body---- And your like, o shit is SAM okay and your like "Hey SAM whats going on, are you okay?" (this has litterally happened {minus the msn name, and SAM does not exist either})  but then SAM throws this  emormous spaz and will be like "WILL YOU JUST FUCK OFF, WHY IS EVERYONE ASKING ME THAT????" and your literal answer is "I dont know FUCKFACE it might have something to do with your name, and how cutting yourself is bad, so why dont you actually do it this time and give us all a break..{I know, thats mean}". Meanwhile you know what you actually say to him ???? this is what you say "sorry...", and then SAM says "its okay..." and then he immediately sets his status to away as if to say "I know your trying to help, but I must cut myself now" when really it means "HAHAHA I have my attention fill, now I will sit here and pick my nose as well as fart, and possibly look at porn, while you think i am cutting myself". ARGH. So no more pro attention, if you are an attention-wanter, and its that bad, you can fucking leave me alone because I have stopped talking to you altogether.

Anyway, thats it really so heres your song:

As Lovers Go-Dashboard Confessional

She said, "I've got to be honest,
You're wasting your time if you're fishin' around here."
And I said, "You must be mistaken,
I'm not foolin', this feelin' is real."
She said, "You've gotta be crazy!
What do you take me for? Some kinda of easy mark?"

"You've got wits,
You've got looks,
You've got passion,
But I swear that you've got me all wrong."

All wrong
All wrong
But you've got me

I'll be true, I'll be useful, I'll be cavalier,
I'll be yours my dear
And I'll belong to you
If you just let me through

This is easy as lovers go.
So don't complicate it by hesitating.
This is wonderful as loving goes.
This is tailormade,
What's the sense in waiting?

I said, "I've got to be honest,
I've been waiting for you all of my life."
For so long I thought I was asylum bound,
But just seeing you makes me think twice.
And being with you here makes me sane.
I fear I'll go crazy if you leave my side.

"You've got wits,
You've got looks,
You've got passion,
But are you brave enough to leave with me tonight?"

Tonight
Tonight
You've got me

I'll be true, I'll be useful, I'll be cavalier,
I'll be yours my dear
I'll belong to you
If you just let me through

This is easy as lovers go. So don't complicate it by hesitating.
This is wonderful as loving goes.
This is tailormade, what's the sense in waiting?

This is easy as lovers go. So don't complicate it by hesitating.
This is wonderful as loving goes.
This is tailormade, what's the sense in waiting?

This is easy as lovers go. So don't complicate it by hesitating.
This is wonderful as loving goes.
This is tailormade, what's the sense in waiting?

So there you go, and if you look at that, and decide your gunna sing it, I will put it on here, not that, that is much of a prestegious prize.

Here be a theory that I derived from years of experience.The theory that the fittest people survive is probably the best theory to look at when you think about stuff like highschool and such. The hottest strongest football player type guys get everything, while we get the supposed "crap" (which is really okay cuz I have a hot-ass girlfriend) Doesnt matter...anyway other instances include the fact that places are more avid to hire them for jobs, and their parents are prouder of them, even though their grades are shit. Well whatever.

You really HAVE to have the heart to  become fit, to survive.

If I say, hey I am going to lose allotta weight, like 10 pounds or something (cuz I think I am overweight) then I gotta stay determined, keep not eating crappy stuff, and do excersie...

 

But whatever, I really Want to lose sum weight and the mission right now is I do abs (crunches) and Cardio, (running) and then I stop snacking and then hopefully by that time some weight is lost.

 

Oh well, Also my grandpa passed away a while back, and my parents had to go up to his house along with other aunts and uncles to pick stuff out that they wanted. Anywhoo they picked up a computer, there was 3 and nobody really wanted one, so I ended up with our old computer in my room (YAY) but then of course I dont have a desk big enough for the monitor that they brought home (BOO) HAHAHAH. O well I will just be happy that I have a computer, even though its on my floor.

 

Anyway thats that, but its before school so I must go now, I will Yell in here later

Peace and Love

Howdy hoo got something to say here...for all the teachers out there.

 

If your a teacher, try to put yourself in the students shoes. I know that you probably here that a lot but I mean more in the sense that over working. You see my english teacher has done just that, the last couple of days. We have an ISU in that class (an independant study unit) where you read a book and compare its superiority to another book (either Macbeth or Death Of A Salesman) whatever thats not such a big deal but like we have a test in that class next week sometime, we have a partner assignment and we have to study for exams. And like the english Exam is the first exam. I guess my real problem is that I also have a ISU in another class to be doing and its just like, my situation isnt soo bad but It just seems like he is one of those teachers that dont consider your other classes and the work you may have in them. For instance tonight Lisa is torn between her chem lab and doing the english ISU outline thingy (which, though it is an outline, will take a while)

 

Anyway school suckss yadda yadda yadda

Now what do you want, a song, sweet that sounds good

Should've Listened-Nickelback

 

There's clothes all over the floor
I don't remember them being here before
Smell of perfume isn't here, why's lipstick on the mirror?
And still I don't understand

No pictures left in the hall, there's three new holes in my wall
Where the hells my credit cards, why's my wallet in the yard
And still I don't understand

Well now I guess I should've listened
When you said you'd had enough
A little trick I picked up from my father
In one ear and out the other, whys love gotta be so tough?

Should see the look on my face, my shit's all over the place
Why's this happening to me, why'd you take both sets of keys?
And still I don't understand

Well now I guess I should've listened
When you said you'd had enough
A little trick I picked up from my father
In one ear and out the other, Whys love gotta be so tough?
Well now I guess I should've listened

There's clothes all over my floor
I don't remember them being here before
There are no candles in here, lipstick still on my mirror?
And still I don't understand

Now I guess I should've listened
When you said you'd had enough
A little trick I picked up from my father
In one ear and out the other, why must life be so tough?

Well now I guess I should've listened
When you said you'd had enough
A little trick I picked up from my father
In one ear and out the other, whys love gotta be so tough

anyway thats that, peace.

p.s. I applied at new york fries today for a job that is 15 hours a week (sweet) cross your fingers and hope I get it please!!

Hahahah I guess this one is going to get a little more personal for me...so please...note...I am a strange person, and i would like to speak frank.

 

I have noticed over the last couple of years that I am a little.....gunshy you might say. I know that sounds funny and all but its true, the only time I will use a urinal is when no one is in the bathroom. I mean I will actually wait till the stalls are empty to go to the bathroom. And then I wonder, do the other guys notice that I am this way, do they care? Do I care? Why do I care if they care? I know that sounds stupid and I know it is stupid but its just something that is like the worst. And then the worst is when like the people dont like flush, how much of an idiot are you? How many of you can there possibly be? Flush the fucking toilet...hahaha this is sooo dumb but I thought it may be a funny thing to share, and just kinda put out there. I wont even begin to get into the details but when I do try to...go in the you know what its just like my brain says "DO IT" and my urinary part of my brain says "I'M TRYING!!!!". Whatever, it is stupid I know.

 

The other problem that has to do with colour is just the fact that like I want to bleach and then dye my hair but I want a job. And I am going to put a resume in tommorrow, so like unless i get to cover my hair...will they let me dye it? And like if I dont get the job and I keep looking for jobs do I continue my quest to dye my hair? Or do I not until I get the job and then ask about it then? All some stuff that I need sorted out...probably should do the job first and then dye if they let me, but I unno. And its not like I have a buncha piercings...even though I would like my eyebrow pierced. But thats future talk, not for right now.

 

Anyway thats the stuff and all that crap. I dunno, I just wanna try and post more, and as small and un-interesting as that was it was probably pretty funny.

 

School is good, boring though, gotta do something about that. Anyways, heres your song and then I peace.

Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers-Let's Roll Another Joint

let me run with you tonight
ill take you under the moonlit night
theres someone i used to see
but she dont give a damn for me
but let me get to the point
lets roll another joint
and turn the radio loud
im too alone to be proud
you dont know how it feels
to be me
poeple come and people go
some grow young some grow cold
i woke up in between
a memory and a dream
so lets get to the point
lets roll another joint
let head on down the road
theres somewhere i got to go
you dont know how it feels
to be me
my old man was born to rock
hes still tryin to beat the clock
think of me in what you will
i got a little space to fill
so lets get to the point
lets roll another joint
lets head on down the road
theres somewhere i got to go
you dont know how it feels
to be me

Alright, peace out.

Hello and

Happy NEW YEAR!!!

Whats happening lately you ask...nothing much...Christmas was fun, i got a lot of money and stuff so that was cool, but I dont know what I want to get ... so that sucks but I am sure something will come to me.

What else did I get for christmas? Heres a list

From Lisa:

A shirt that says: Beware of my wiener (theres a wiener dog on it)

A shirt that says: Dont make me laugh I'll fart

A Patch of a skull

A pair of boxers that say ont freeze your (and there is a donkey)

A pair of boxers that say:Corona and Miles away from ordinary

Silly Putty (gold w00t)

Gloves to cut out the fingers of so they look kooly!

A travelbag type thing except it was A gillette one and it had Shaving Cream and After shave and this really cool razor in it (that I have wanted for a while).

NHL Hitz 2003 for Xbox (funn funn funn)

Jackass numero uno

Candy!!!

Lisa's Old babysitter Peggy gave me a wristband thingy that looks like a belt for dolls but its cool

Lisa's Pappy gave me and lisa $25 for the movies so we can go see movies!!!

Lisa's Family Gave me Fifty Lambton Mall bucks

From mon Parents and Sista's I got:

Microphone Stand

Low tops

40 Lambton mall bucks

AXE set (three body gels, and two mini sprays)

Cd's--->Make Believe-Weezer

             Alexisonfire-Crisis

            Green Day-International Superhits

            Sublime-Self Titled

            The Used-Self Titled (the old one)

A green day flag that says American Idiot

A new Green Day Calendar

And much much more, which I sadly, cannot think of right now

But My parents bought Me, Jenn, Cait, And lisa DDR Ultramix 4

50 Lambton mall bucks from Nana

15 Lambton Mall bucks from Uncle Rudy

 

I have already bought a belt from B Kool in the mall so thats all fun.

Guess what else is new

I got a facebook! You wanna see, sure you do here ya go.

Yeah so thats all cool and stuff

I am playing DDR with lisa right now, were taking turns its funn she kicks my ass sometimes, I kick hers sometimes, its cool.

Wanna see our Band web Page here ya go:

The Red Eyed Entity

Check out the pics, I made them!! yay! (well the drawing ones anyways, Lisa made the eye one it soo cool)

Anyways, Heres your song and I am out

Nothing like getting sick after christmas btw! lol.

April 29th 1992-Sublime (HE DOES SAY 26th in the song, but the lyrics booklet says 29th [help?])

(I don't know if you can, but can you get an order for Ons, that's O-N-S,
Junior Market, the address is 1934 East Anaheim, all the windows are
busted out,... if he wants to)

April 26th, 1992
There was a riot on the streets
Tell me where were you?
You were sittin' home watchin' your TV
While I was participating in some anarchy
First spot we hit it was my liquor store
I finally got all that alcohol I can't afford
With red lights flashin', time to retire
And then we turned that liquor store into a structure fire
Next stop we hit, it was the music shop,
It only took one brick to make the window drop
Finally we got our own P.A.
Where do you think I got this guitar that you're hearing today?

(Call fire... respond mobil station. alamidos in anaheim, its uhh flaming up good...)

When we returned to the pad to unload everything
It dawned on me that I need new home furnishings
So once again we filled the van until it was full
Since that day my livin' room's been much more comfortable
Cause everybody in the hood has had it up to here
It's getting harder, and harder, and harder each and every year
Some kids went in a store with their mother
I saw her when she came out she was gettin' some Pampers
They said it was for the black man
They said it was for the mexican
But not for the white man
But if you look at the streets, it wasn't about Rodney King
It's this fucked-up situation and these fucked-up police
It's about comin' up and stayin' on top
And screamin' 1-8-7 on a mother fuckin' cop
It's ain't in the paper, it's on the wall
National guard
Smoke from all around

(Units be advised of an attempt 211 to arrest now at 938 Temple, 9-3-8
Temple, many subjects with bats trying to get inside the CB's
house...they're trying to kill him)

Cuz' as long as I'm alive, I'ma live illegal

Let it burn
Wanna let it burn, wanna let it burn
Wanna wanna let it burn
(I feel insane)
Riots on the streets of Miami
Whoa, riots on the streets of Chicago
On the streets of Long Beach
In San Francisco
Riots on the streets of Kansas City
Tuskaloosa, Alabama
Cleveland, Ohio
Fountain Valley, Paramount, Vista Buelle
Eugene, Oregon
Eureka, California
Hesperia
Santa Barbara
mother fuckin' Nevada
Phoenix, Arizona
San Diego
Lakeland, Florida
fuckin' 29 Palms

(Need a unit to... structure fire and numerous subjects looting)
(10-15 to get rid of this looter)

Okay well thats all, ttyl

Yeah so I had a long talk with Lisa last night about this thing that she is supporting where they are trying to stop "skinny" models. Which is probably a bit of an understatement. I see they are talking about girls with annorexia and that, which seems to me like one of the worst things you could do to your body, just to look better. But Lisa supports it because its an image that you see, everytime you open a magazine and its not right to try and judge yourself by what some overly skinny, model looks like. At first I wasnt quite shur about this thing. I thought like... Well there are so many problems, like the "skinny models" going out of work, lack of magazine scales, that sort of thing, without really realizing that in fact "skinny" meant "annorexic" or way too skinny.

 

The problem with the world, in general, is that most of us have the wrong image of a perfect human being implanted in our brains. Further more, we have an image of a perfect human being in our brains. If people wouldnt look at other people and want to look like that, and if people never ever ever looked at someone and thought that they were attractive just because they were skinny, there would be no perfect image. We wouldnt have to be insecure, we wouldnt know what skinny meant even.

 

The other problem is, a photograph doesnt give you a lot of oversite. For instance, if your skinny as hell and you havent worked out a damn minute to earn it, youve just closed your eyes and stuck your fingers down your throat, we dont see that, or girls dont see that. They see the attractive looking female who may not even be an adult, in some sexy pose. That altogether almost screams the words "Hey, guess what, you dont look like me, you never will, your fat, IM not, your ugly...Im not..."

When really little girls should be looking at this picture thinking... "Im smart, your not, your stupid im not, I dont care what I look like, as long as I feel good about myself. And As long as I am not judging how I feel about myself, by comparing myself to you." But thats the perfect world correct? When was the last time that people said something like that and stuck to it? Remember when all the signs in grade 1 said "say NO to drugs"? Pfft... you see how well that works in the long run right? I would have a harder time telling you how many of my friends never tried weed then how many have, and then how many have tried harder things. 

 

http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,217100,00.html

I dont think that was worth anything at all to me. In fact it sounds as if she is more worried about the models who are bulimic then the 100 people who are bulimic because of every 1 model, or the 100 girls who grow up to quickly because of one model,  if you know what I am saying.

 

But whatever, thats all gay, my only advice to women would be to be who you want to be, just be what you want, if you want to lose weight, go for it, if you want to gain weight,go for it, just dont put yourself in the danger zone. And exercise to lose weight, dont just stick them fingres down thee throat and puke up your dinner and your bile, thats just sick.

 

heres a picture of Charlee that I just took with my webcam, he was above me so its not a good picture, but also cuz he left as I was taking it.

Anyway, yeah, he says "Ruff and Hi and all that stuff, and a potato too"

Heres your song

Billy Talent-When I was a little girl

Another F again I fret,
Another cocky hypocrite,
Another dirty LOOK from a passerby.
Kiddy porn and lunatics,
All the things that make me sick,
Another suicide from a sad rock star.

So get the fuck out of my face,
And disappear without a trace.
You annoying little prick,
I'll reach into my bag of tricks.
And then I'll pull out a hand grenade,
Your machoism fades away.
But I will not pull out the pin,
Because thats mean!!

With judgement day not far away,
You're sniffing all your days away.
I don't know who to blame,
Is it me or is it you?
Violent death and viruses,
And lack there-of of consciousness.
Another shitty song on the radio.
Lets go!

I'll kick the teeth OUT of your face.
I killed the cat theres no more chase.
You push on me I'll push you back.
So come on girls lets go attack.
Don't look at me, I've had my fill.
Don't find yourself inside a pill.
But I will not pull out my gun,
Cause I don't have one!!

Why can't you let me be?
Said, why can't you just let me be?
Why can't you just let me be?
Why can't you just let me be?
Why can't you let!

PS.got a haircut yesterday, go job hunting today, w00t